I moved out. Moved in with the love of my life and couldn’t be happier 
…BUT. I’ve gained soo much weight. I’m now 177. Fuck!! I now need to lose 22 pounds and I feel so discouraged. 
Today I’ve have 1540 calories. I may also have an ice cream sandwich when my boyfriend comes home but tomorrow my goal is 1400.
Respect his needs
Be kind to yourself, and dont put unnecessary stress on yourself
Everything happens for a reason
When it comes to relationships, only 50% of it is in your control, so there’s no point worrying, what will happen will happen
“Comparing yourself to others seems to be a symptom of this belief of scarcity. And you feel jealous because someone else has gotten one of those scarce things or opportunities that you wanted.
Focusing your mind on the scarcity can really screw with your thoughts, feelings and life. It can cause much stronger negative emotions than is really reasonable. And it gets you really stuck in the jealousy, intensifying it, making it stronger and more long-lasting by feeding it with more thoughts and emotional energy.”
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Surrender. And develop a habit of not identifying so much with your thoughts and emotions.
Although just switching my focus to the abundance usually seems to work to overcome jealousy I thought I’d share another way to has also been helpful. This method is useful if you have been carrying the negative emotion for a while and don’t seem to be able to get rid of it.
And it’s basically this: stop fighting your jealousy. Surrender to it instead and just accept it. This may sound counter-intuitive. But the thing is that you are feeding the emotional loop with more energy by resisting the emotion.
When you surrender to the emotion and let it in then you stop feeding it. And it goes away. Here’s one practical way of doing this:
Say yes to the feeling.
Surrender and let it in. Observe the feeling in your mind and body without labelling or judging it. If you let it in – for me the feeling then often seems to physically locate itself to the middle of my chest – and just observe it for maybe a minute or two the feeling just vanishes.
- when a friend doesn’t call me
- when he doesn’t call me
- when he doesn’t respond to a text/initiate texting
- when he says “love you too” instead of “love you more” (ridiculous)
- when he only spends a small amount of time with me
- when he’s tired
- when a friend cancels plans on me
- when he has female friends and talks to them
all this builds up to the fact that I easily feel neglected or unwanted. i have high standards for relationship contact and im unsure of how to lower those standards to a more rational level.
me and my boyfriend had the worst fight we’ve ever had; the mother of all fights. I know I need to get help and talk to a professional counselor about my insecurities and get my life figured out. I need that, and I’ve finally made an appointment. I just don’t want it to be too late for us, or for it to be something that me and him cant get back from. I need him in my life; i love him so so much. I just don’t understand why i do this destructive pattern over and over again; it hurts me, it hurts him, and it’s ruining us. he told me to give him space today and im trying to respect that but it’s so difficult because im worried giving him space = him breaking up with me. he might break up with me. I just want to talk to him, to see him, to cuddle him, and pretend that nothing happened. I never should have said what I said to him, it was the stupidest thing in the world and completely unnecessary. if he left me now I’d break down because i’d feel unlovable.
But then I get these eerie moments of calm where I realize I would be just fine without him…I just don’t want this to be what we’ll remember if we look back on this – my issues.
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